I FINALLY found my digital camera yesterday!  I was sooo excited since it had been MIA since the day before Mothers Day.  Of course I was searching for something else when I found the camera. LOL.

 

Today I participated in what is known by women as a dreaded ritual.  It usually brings about feelings of inadequacy, self-loathing, fear, panic, and a LOT of wishing… wishing this part or that part could be bigger/smaller/firmer/taller; wishing we already had a great tan because everything looks worse on pasty white flesh; wishing the one we liked came in our size; wishing the store carried anything besides little bikinis; wishing we had gone to the gym since February; wishing they made swimsuits with sleeves to cover flabby arms… the list goes on.  If you have a fountain and some coins near the dressing room you could clean up.

 

 

I guess I got pretty lucky today.  I only had an hour to spend, between the time I left my house and the time I had to be back.  That meant I could not go to the mall, I could only make it to Kohl’s and back and I had to be quick about it.  I had already tried Target and failed, their stock was completely depleted.  Kohl’s had quite a bit left so I set about finding whatever was there in a one piece or tank in brown or black prints in my size.  I found several suits, the brown had blue/green in it but my daughter liked it so I tried it on.  She liked it on but it was a little too revealing for my comfort level. 

 

 

I did end up really liking one of the tank suits and a one piece, all black and white prints.  The skirt of the tank can be worn over the one piece too so that is a nice bonus.  It was amazing to look at myself in the mirror and not look like an old lady in a suit.  My old suits were several sizes bigger so I REALLY needed new ones and I’m really glad I went and got them now.  Instead of it being really traumatic it was a good thing.  Don’t worry, I did serve my trauma time before in the try-on room at Target. LOL.  

That's how I feel when I go and buy a bra, but some days, the luck runs your way!

I look like total crap in swim wear and I'm not yet to where I can just say to hell with it and not care about what I wear, even in my own backyard. I still need to lose at least 20 lbs, 40 lbs would be nice but that's a pipe dream...lol.
So glad to read you found your camera, I would feel totally lost. Can't wait to see some new pics. We haven't been up to anything at all except fixing boats...hoping to go fishing this Sunday. It seems every day off for Tom and he is busy doing that or helping everyone else and before we know it it is 10pm and we sit here online and just veg before we have to go to sleep. I am fantasizing about revamping my journal, hoping that will somehow magically inspire me but I doubt it. Sorry Bella is regressing in the toilet training department. Kurtis has accidents but they are rare...all my kids have toilet trained themselves thank goodness, I don't have the patience..lol. 5 kids and only one in diapers is great, 15 years of this and I'm just about done with being a professional butt cleaner :P
We had a nice 4th of July...hope you all did too. lets catch up SOON!!!!! I'll hopefully be logged in on Yahoo tonight after Tom gets home. Love ya