I’m still feeling depressed; only now I can add irritable to the mix.  So I guess I’m on a low phase.  It really seems to hit me this time of day, early evening.  I just lost my patience with my little girl, spanked her and sent her to bed without dinner.  My rage had been building all day long over her refusal to use the bathroom instead of going in her pull-up over and over or on the floor. 

She is three and a half and WAS in underwear for quite a while but started having a ton of “accidents” a few months ago.  For example she would pee on the floor in front of the toilet.  She could have easily made it IN the toilet. After talking it over with a nurse at her preschool we agreed it would be best to put her back in pull-ups until she was ready to be a big girl again.  She wanted to wear underwear again a few weeks ago so we tried it one day and it was a disaster – 3 bad accidents in 2 hours.  So we didn’t continue.

Of course after I spanked her and sent her to her room I felt spent, guilty and tired.  Part of me wanted to climb in bed next to her and go to sleep, but I was afraid I might wake her up if I did.  I took an Rx my doctor gave me, I’m supposed to take it when I rage to calm me down.  My anger had already pretty much deflated by that time.

One cool thing did happen today.  I drove my older daughter to her friend’s house yesterday to sleep over.  They were going to a festival with rides and games.  My daughter called me a couple of hours ago to say they found a baby owl in the street.  They weren’t sure if it was hurt or not but it wasn’t able to fly.  They scooped it into a box and they were going to take it to a local animal shelter.  Hopefully they will be equipped to take care of wildlife, or if not, transfer the owl to an appropriate agency for care.  I’ve never seen anything other than cats and dogs at local shelters but who knows.  My daughter had her digital camera with her and took photos and a video of its head going around 360 degrees… I’m looking forward to seeing that!!

One other good thing - this happened yesterday on my way home from the hairdresser.  I stopped at a yard sale with my little girl, mostly because she wanted to look at a toy.  And I wound up buying a brand new (Sales Tags On) Coach Swingpack bag, for - get this - FIVE BUCKS!!  I was doing the dance of joy when I got home.  The thing still had all the packing inside and all the tags, etc still on it.  It's a $138 bag.  Pretty darn cool!!